THANK Heaven! the crisis —

The danger is past,

And the lingering illness

Is over at last —

And the fever called “Living”

Is conquered at last.

 

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Sadly, I know

I am shorn of my strength,

And no muscle I move

As I lie at full length —

But no matter! — I feel

I am better at length.

 

And I rest so composedly

Now, in my bed,

That any beholder

Might fancy me dead —

Might start at beholding me,

Thinking me dead.

 

The moaning and groaning,

The sighing and sobbing,

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Are quieted now,

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With that horrible throbbing

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At heart: — Ah that horrible,

Horrible throbbing!

 

The sickness — the nausea —

The pitiless pain — [page 75:]

Have ceased with the fever

That maddened my brain —

With the fever called “Living”

That burned in my brain.

 

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And oh! of all tortures

That torture the worst

Has abated — the terrible

Torture of thirst

For the naphthaline river

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Of Passion accurst: —

I have drank of a water

That quenches all thirst: —

 

Of a water that flows,

With a lullaby sound,

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From a spring but a very few

Feet under ground —

From a cavern not very far

Down under ground.

 

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But ah! let it never

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Be foolishly said

That my room it is gloomy

And narrow my bed;

For man never slept

In a different bed —

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And, to sleep, you must slumber

In just such a bed.

 

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My tantalized spirit

Here blandly reposes,

Forgetting, or never

Regretting, its roses — [page 76:]

Its old agitations

Of myrtles and roses:

 

For now, while so quietly

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Lying, it fancies

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A holier odor

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About it, of pansies —

A rosemary odor,

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Commingled with pansies —

With rue and the beautiful

Puritan pansies.

 

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And so it lies happily,

Bathing in many

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A dream of the truth

And the beauty of Annie —

Drowned in a bath

Of the tresses of Annie.

 

She tenderly kissed me,

She fondly caressed,

And then I fell gently

To sleep on her breast —

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Deeply to sleep

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From the heaven of her breast.

 

When the light was extinguished,

She covered me warm,

And she prayed to the angels

To keep me from harm —

To the queen of the angels

To shield me from harm. [page 77:]

 

And I lie so composedly,

Now, in my bed,

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(Knowing her love)

That you fancy me dead —

And I rest so contentedly,

Now, in my bed,

(With her love at my breast)

That you fancy me dead —

That you shudder to look at me,

Thinking me dead: —

 

But my heart it is brighter

Than all of the many

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Stars in the sky,

For it sparkles with Annie —

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It glows with the light

Of the love of my Annie —

With the thought of the light

Of the eyes of my Annie.